I want to ki_ _ you.

my goals and wishes for 2015 have almost came true except few things.

about my beauty,,,
＊got -3kg, got better shape
＊no more acne on my face
＊finally found best cosmetics for my skin
＊started pole dance
＊got injection for my face to be smaller, was smaller than other girls though
＊gonna remove all of my moles on Jan 2016

about my life,,,
＊spent three years to get you and finally got you
＊got savings
＊got the best ticket at his concert and got best memory
＊went trips four times

bad things,,,
＊can't stop seeing other guys
＊seems to have lost that,,,
＊was lazy to study for myself

Let's play back 2015.
Jan, worked for my favorite clothe shop and was busy.
Sep, found the way to get more money and got it a lot. went to trip with you and our friends. felt my feelings for you so much.
Mar, spent two weeks and all of my money in States. love LA like before and I was missing him there.
Apr, started job.
Mar, my BD and met old friends.
Jun, you came to me so hurt.
Jul, not so much things happened.
Aug, went to the biggest fireworks festival with you and our friends. the way you look at me has finally started to change. He told me he want me in his future and our relationship started. trips.
Sep, LA'rCasino and told him a lie, said bye to him. started pole dance.
Oct, Halloween party, I wasn't able to over him, met him and started to seeing him again even I'm with you.
Nov, frustration for you has nearly vented.
Dec, got the best ticket ever and touched my ideal man's finger on the stage, got Christmas presents, went to trip.

I seem to have lost something important. There's only one in this world. Ialmost cry, please let me find it, I'm begging. There's no replacement for this thing.
I don't need fancy stuff anymore, I just need that.

Merry Christmas.
You didn't get me this year again.
What a bummer.

I got CHANEL and GUCCI though.

They always treat me like a princess and I think that is so right. But you don't do that, you think I'm always there only for you and I'm so into you that you're so relieved. Everything about you irritates me a lot and I wasn't expecting this situation at all. Now I feel so stupid. damn