I want to ki_ _ you.

I wonder why we stick things we used to love. Sometimes, even a small thing can remind me of old memory. I hope I could fill my mind all about you.

I feel I can't find someone better than you for me. Is
it crazy to think so? I've known you more than four years but we still started this new relationship so I should say I don't know you enough. Though you say I know you more than anyone else and good at treating you the best.
But the funny thing is we still hadn't had sex even we both put great value on sexually imcompatible. and I'm pretty sure we're gonna be satisfied so much but when I imagine if we don't... I feel so devastated.

人間って本当、欲が止まらない。欲しかったものを一つ手に入れたらまた新しい欲が次から次に溢れ出す。

誰かを自分のものにするなんて不可能なのに。

でも本当に壊したくない。誰よりも欲しかった人が、欲しかった以上の言葉をくれて、初めて誰かと一緒にいる未来を鮮明に想像できた。

これ以上欲しいものなんてないはずでしょう。

I wanna be in your dream tonight. I want you to think of me every day and night actually, I wanna be in your head every single moment.

and I wanna sleep in your arms holding your big hand, listening to your sweet words and feeling your breath next to me every night. I never wanna lose you and I want you to feel the same, exactly same amount of my feelings or more than that.

Finally he hold my hand and told me his feelings. He said I'm beyond his girlfriend because I'm already like his partner. He certainly sees me in his future and I've always seen him in mine too.

I couldn't wait this moment. I've always wanted to touch him desparately and now I can do anything I have yearned. It was worth waiting because I always knew this happens someday.

I love you so much.

Finally it's today, I'll get money and end this relationship. Everything is under controled, he believes my words and I believe what I said to him too.
I'l play a sad girl but I'm the one who laugh at last.

When I say bye to him for good, I'll see you.