I want to ki_ _ you.

気付けばいつも隣にいた。私は彼の横にいると何も心配せずに笑っていられて、それが心地良くて…離れたくなかった。いつからか彼を独占したくて、でもこの関係を崩す勇気はなくて、もう手遅れになってた。

だからね、もう変わろうと思う。彼なしでも誰の支えがなくても強く生きていけるような女性になる。
引っ越すし、名字も変わるし、生活も変わる。これを機に私自身生まれ変わろうと思うの。強い女性に。

If I realized it faster and tried hard to get him, I was the one who is with you now. How can I find someone else better than you? and why you always act like you care me and love me?

I've known you for more than three years and now I finally get to know more about you. and I know how you love me, you love me like I'm your little sister who always need your support and you're always willing to help dear little sister, me.

I guess it was the happiest day in this 22 years. The night we spent together... we never expect what the future holds, we both only had the greatest feelings we never had before, we both believed we finally found the one and we were meant to be together... after few days, we fell apart.

That was the day I decided I never believe in God.

I'm going down and down. What's wrong with me? I sleep with someone I barley know. I'll work somewhere I never thought I can work.
If my mom knows about it, she's gonna devastated and may think it's her fault. But it isn't. I even don't know what's right and wrong.
I guess I started losing everything inside of me like love, moral or dignity.

Hey, come and find me, take me somewhere filled with happiness.

It's been a year since I went to Cali and many friends are visiting there now again.
When I go back there, I wanna go there with you. Just two of us. I assure you even the long flight, money or bad memories will pay the price if we could share every moment again there. Then we could start over. Love you babe.
I wonder why you're so special to me...